My husband and I got into a long discussion the other day while both of us were battling our depression. One of the comments I made is I no longer wished/hoped/dreamed for good things to happen because let's be honest: my life hasn't exactly reflected very many positive things lately. Everything good that's happened has been unlooked for so daydreaming about the good stuff that can happen has gotten me absolutely nowhere, except even more depressed.
My husband looked at me and said, "So? Stop daydreaming and start DOING. Make some goals for yourself." That's how he's managed to lose weight over the last few months. He set his goals, set the steps for those goals, and he's actually succeeded. This has inspired him to set other goals and work towards them.
I am not a goal-driven person. I'm a "go with the flow" type of person. However, that hasn't been working out so well for me. Going with the flow means I'm circling the drain. And I don't want to completely get flushed by my depression and by how badly life drags me down some (most) days. So...I've decided to set a few goals. Mostly to do with my writing, since that's where I've lost the most focus lately.
Now I'm sure you're wondering why I'm mentioning them to you, my dear followers. (And even if you're not, let me have my delusions. *grin*) The simple truth is: I'm lazy. Without someone to keep me in line and demand a report of my activities I'll set my goals and then ignore them and fall down again. I'm closer to achieving my first goals at work which will lead to me getting OFF the phones the majority of the time and into something more like management (which is what I want). My manager is forever checking up with me on this, making sure I'm doing what I need to do.
So I'm going to use my blog as a way to account for my actions - along with the usual rants, whines, ecstatic exclamations, social commentary, etc. I've got some goals I'm setting for December and I will be updating once a week (probably on Saturday or Sunday) with how I'm doing on accomplishing these goals.
So...my list of goals for December are:
1. Finishing the first round of edits on ONLY A NAME.
2. Start & finish the holiday themed short stories I've been meaning to write.
3. Make some progress on CRACKED WORLD, which has also stalled because of my inability to focus on my writing.
4. Find something POSITIVE to tweet/blog about every day instead of focusing on how bad everything is going. (I probably won't blog about the positive things EVERY day, but I might make a list when I do my Sunday goal check posts.)
So, next Sunday expect to have an update of how I'm doing on these goals. Also, if you follow me on Twitter, I'll be posting a bit about my goals there too. So hopefully someone here will keep me honest and be after me to keep up the work on my goals. After three months of this, I probably won't even need the watchdogging because for humans it takes 3 months for something to become habit. So if everything goes well, by March I'll have this down as a habit.
Wish me luck!